Eh. I've been trying out for North High's Baseball team since Saturday morning. Today we were at North in the gym practicing. At the end of practice, Coach Myers came up to me and another kid and told us he'd have to let us go. It's pretty depressing. I've been trying out for North since freshman year and I just can't seem to get in. I thought this year would be different. I seemed to do alot better than I did last year. Everyone else just did even better than I did. I tried my best and failed. Better luck next year? I don't know yet. I'm not sure if I'm going to try out (surprise?). Whatever. The worst part is that this year I've developed a phobia of trying out. When I went to one of the meetings this year, I was so nervous around them, like I didn't belong. Everyone else had played baseball for North. I was the only one that didn't. I felt terrible. Everyone was having a good time talking and laughing before the meeting while I sat there like I was left out in the cold. None of them knew me, and I only knew some of them from hearing their names. When tryouts came it was even worse. Everyone expected me to fail, since I had done so in the past. None of them said anything to me but it was obvious that that's what they were thinking. It still gets worse. I can't look at anyone on the team after being cut. When I see them in the halls (it's not as bad this year since I go to tech) I automatically look away or down. It feels like I'm not good enough to be around them. I know it's not true but I can't seem to change the way I feel. As I said, I don't know if I'm going to try out in my Senior year. That would be the best year to make it, but that's what I thought about my sophomore year for JV and look what happened. I don't know anymore. I don't know where I'm going to play elsewhere this year. It looks like Maugansville isn't going to have their Big League. The idea of me playing for my church's softball team sounds fun, but softball is much different from baseball. Most people don't realize it. The rules are different. The gameplay is different. It won't feel right to me. I can try it but I can't imagine I'll like it as much as I like baseball. I don't like anything as much as baseball. Oh well. I'll get over it.
If you want to talk to me, whatever. MySpace, Facebook, AIM, I don't care.
Bye.
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Oh. That sucks, dude. Maybe there's favoritism invovled!?!? I hate it when coaches do that. And there's no where else you can play?? You could try out next year, a lot of coaches won't cut you cuz you are a Senior. That's what happens at our school, anyway. Cuz it happened to me. If you love it enough, then you should try out again. :)
AHEM since when did you get a Facebook!?!? Do tell more! :):)
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